"You really like it, huh?" Tony whispers before he rests his cheek on Steve and they lapse into comfortable silence. The feminine clothes, he means -- with how Steve rambled about Tony's legs just now and how he admired the pin-up girls exhibit in the MoSex, Tony wonders if wearing the skirt and everything is really all that bad. Despite his own feelings on it, the look makes Steve happy. A bit of pride seems like a small price to pay, and if Tony's honest he enjoys the little flush of humiliation from being tasked to cross-dress. Plus, waxed hair-free, his legs are mindbogglingly more sensitive.
When Steve pulls back and kisses him, Tony fidgets his hips and whimpers. The cockring has kept him hard, along with the past week of obedient self-deprivation, and the plug is still slotted maddeningly into his ass. "Is that not what we're already doing?" he rasps, voice wrecked, honestly confused. He consented earlier, at the start of this.
Steve smirks at Tony just before he pulls the blindfold back down. "Just wanted to double-check, sweetheart." There's always that moment of insecurity in a scene when he wonders if he's doing it right, when he just needs to make sure that Tony's okay with everything, no matter what he's already consented to. He knows that this is mild for Tony, but some part of him fears crossing a line nevertheless.
(Frankly, he's a little surprised Tony isn't a lot deeper by now, and that makes him worry that he's doing something wrong. But he pushes the concern aside - Tony would have stopped him if he was doing anything he didn't like - and keeps going.)
Usually, he'd reward Tony by letting him come, but Steve needs to help him sink all the way down, to let go of all his fears and anxieties and guilt. He slides off the bed again and studies the dildos before settling on one that's long enough to hit Tony's prostate, but won't be nearly as thick as he wants right now, only a little thicker than the plug he already has in him. Sitting down again, he uncaps the lube and smears a generous glob of it over the dildo. "I'll take care of you, Tony," he promises sweetly as he eases the plug out.
Tony's head lolls back on the pillows like he's tipsy. With the heels off, he plants his feet flat and raises his knees for Steve, quick to trust and obey. The plug requires some coaxing; he's tightened since. "I know you will," he murmurs, though Steve's reassurance relaxes him more. He's not in subspace, but all his excess layers are peeling away, down to the sweet, pliable center. "I'm sorry I make this so hard sometimes. You're so good to me. You deserve better."
Steve abandons what he's doing for the moment and crawls up the bed to kneel next to Tony's torso. "I told you before, you don't have to apologize," he reminds him softly. "I don't deserve better, and even if I did, I want you. That's the important part." His voice is full of emotion - more emotion than Tony would probably be comfortable with outside subspace. In lieu of stroking his forehead, Steve leans down and kisses him, long and sweet. Even without the haze of arousal clouding his thoughts and leading him around by the dick, he loves Tony so much that it's a nearly palpable ache.
"Besides," he adds, and his tone is a little less sappy and a little more sassy, "nobody expects you to be easy, Tony. If you were, it wouldn't be as fun." And speaking of fun, Steve's about to troll him mercilessly.
Kissing Tony's forehead first, he moves back down between his thighs and starts to work the dildo in, adding more lube as he goes. "I thought that would keep you nice and open," he comments casually, like it isn't the first time in his entire life he's used an anal plug. "Guess I gotta keep stretching you out till you're ready to take me, hmm?"
Tony chuckles, relieved and hoarse, but he can't help but remember Pepper and how easy he could dip to his knees for her. Not always, but he never fought her on it. He wanted to worship her. It felt right to be beneath her. That's neither here nor now, though. The thought trickles out of him, through the growing crevices in his mind, like the patter of rainwater. (He never quite managed to sink as deep with her either, not like he sinks with Steve like it's an out-of-body experience and Tony almost can't recognize himself in all the whimpering and want.)
He tilts his head to try and catch a glimpse beneath the blindfold (he wants to see, wants to watch Steve), but it's fitted to the contours of his cheekbones and nose so not even light peeks through. He spreads his feet apart to leverage his hips higher. "Guess so. Gonna touch me this time?" he chastises airily.
"Maybe." Steve's grin is audible in his voice, like he's the Cheshire Cat. "You'll have to wait and see, won't you?" Or not, as the case may be, and the blindfold itself should help build up anticipation for that. Not that Tony exactly needs any help getting harder, but the thought of teasing him like that excites Steve, too.
This is the first time he's used a dildo, too, and it feels like a strange disconnect, having something else between himself and Tony. He frowns slightly at the angle and grabs the second pillow from the head of the bed. "Lift your hips up," he tells Tony, and once he complies, slides the pillow underneath his ass. Now it's less awkward; the dildo doesn't have the same flexibility as flesh, doesn't conform the same way his cock or fingers would. He watches Tony as he works it in and out slowly, trying to figure out when he hits the prostate. (It's probably better Tony can't see his face screwed up in concentration as he changes the angle of the dildo slightly every time. He's too self-conscious about it.)
A sharp inhale flows into a long, wiggly moan. After the first night that Steve fucked him, Tony brought up the sad neglect his cock endured then: sure, he can ejaculate without being touched if his prostate is stimulated hard enough, but it can be a tiring, painful (in a good way, he admits) experience. At the time, Tony figured that'd be the end of it. Steve knew better now. Big guy was still learning. Surely he wouldn't think to venture into edging or denial just yet -- though after Steve's display earlier, Tony has no doubt he could. Steve has been remarkably good at performing domination by the seat of his pants, his sharp tactician mind translating just as well from battlefield to bedroom. Tony's vowed not to underestimate him again.
Once a pillow props up his ass, he stretches out his legs to either side. "Please?" he tries like a test. Maybe if he's good, Steve will have mercy. Part of him, though, doesn't want Steve to. Part of him wants to be driven wild, flung out of his mind -- the dildo bumps against its target inside. Tony twitches in his lower body and sighs.
Steve huffs a laugh, dragging his fingertips over Tony's smooth inner thigh, enjoying how it feels without any hair there. Not that he doesn't enjoy the body hair that Tony doesn't have groomed away, but this is something of a novelty for him.
He admits that not touching Tony the first time was a mistake that, in retrospect, was embarrassingly obvious. (Steve still feels the burn of shame for that one. Maybe Tony doesn't care about his inexperience, but part of Steve refuses to believe that.) This time, it's deliberate. His free hand roams everywhere but Tony's erection, tracing the lines of the garter, lingering maddeningly on his pelvis. All the while, he keeps fucking Tony with the toy, hitting his prostate with nearly every thrust.
The huffed laugh forms an excitable dread in Tony's stomach which only grows with every passing moment that Steve avoids his dick. The skin of his inner thighs is particularly sensitive hairless. They tremble under Steve's fingertips. His worry grows. Oh, God, Steve is really teasing him, isn't he? The dildo jabs against his sweet spot, suctioning in and out, but it's too thin for the stretch that Tony loves, and he thinks back to Steve whispering into his ear that he's gotta earn his pleasure. Tony both fears and craves this. After so many thrusts and ghost touches around his pleading cock (it's been a month, jacking off with Steve over the phone isn't the same or enough), with him powerless without his hands or his vision, it builds into a desperation that crowds everything else out, everything except Steve and what Tony can do to appease him.
"Steve? Honey? You're not -- not forgetting me, right?" he gasps. He's teetering at the edge of a long drop, a welcoming abyss, entranced by the nothingness but afraid of the plunge. He's built so much of himself back up since they first started doing scenes, back when Tony threw himself into subspace for the sheer relief of it. He's reinforced all his walls. There's the crux of it, enough finally peeled away to reveal the truth: underneath the excuses of pride and strength and how submission isn't that, he's scared of being vulnerable again, of being hurt, because he's already made himself so raw for Steve, as raw as he made himself for Pepper, who in the end left him.
"Of course not," Steve soothes him, surprised by the question. He'd been planning on pushing him more with just the dildo, but his plan (whatever small scraps of a plan he has, anyway) can work just as well touching him. There's a desperate fear in Tony's voice that's too real, and Steve knows better than to try and push past it. "It's all right."
Although it takes a moment to find a position that's comfortable, Steve finally lowers his head and brushes a kiss against the head of Tony's cock, dips his tongue into the slit and laps away the precome. "See? I got you, darling." Steve licks up and down his length like he's a piece of candy, tongue tracing the veins that stand out, even while he keeps working with the dildo. Eventually, he takes him into his mouth, sucking in earnest, waiting for those telltale signs that he's about to come.
Tony keens like a pitiful dog, high-pitched in the back of his sore, abused throat, and slurs, "Thank you, thank you," and finally, beautifully starts to sink. Steve will take care of him, like Steve said. Tony squirms on the sheets with a little mewl, cheek resting on his pillow, so much that Steve will have to hold him in place or risk dislodging the dildo and his mouth. It only takes a couple minutes before the whimpers and pleas increase and Tony's body tenses, back arching from a dry orgasm, on the verge of shooting, desperate, but needing just that bit more of a push to burst past the cockring.
It's a little difficult to hold Tony down, but Steve manages to pin him with his free arm over his hips to stop him from wriggling. He grins around Tony's cock as Tony starts to beg, pleased with his own skill. It's only as Tony's back arches that Steve lets his cock drop from his mouth and pulls the dildo out as clenched muscles do their best to hold onto it. Tony's left empty and aching on the verge of release, and it's the most goddamn beautiful thing Steve's seen all night.
Tony cries out an elongated, broken litany of no, no, no as he's denied release and he tries to buck his hips, which Steve holds down fast, which in turn wrenches a guttural moan from him. He's so vocal when he's under, every hitched breath a gust. The tide of his orgasm recedes just out of his reach, and he trembles for want of it. "Steve?" Tony pants, a plea and a question. He doesn't know what to do, how to be good for Steve: his mind's only directive.
"Shh, shh, I'm just havin' a little fun, that's all." He glances up at Tony's hands out of reflex, but his fingers are simply curled. (It's silly to check when Tony's capable of safewording normally, but some part of him is paranoid about accidents, about pushing him just that tiny bit too far.)
Licking his lips nervously, he reaches for the lube. First comes the toy he grabbed earlier - a plug just a little wider than the dildo, giving Tony more of what he wants, but still not enough. He eases it in slowly until the flared base presses close against Tony's ass.
Even now, he can admit that what comes next probably isn't the best idea he's had, but he wants to know what it feels like, and fucking himself with a toy while Tony watches just seems strange to him, like it skews the dynamics of their scene. Using Tony for his pleasure just makes sense.
"I'm gonna need you to keep holding on for me, okay?" Steve croons as he straddles Tony's thighs. "I know you can do it, darling." The lube is cold and makes a squelching noise as he smears it over Tony's cock, making sure there's plenty of it everywhere. "Just keep being good."
There's a small, sweet "okay" that breaks down into more whimpering and wriggling. "Tha'z good, tha'z good, thank you," he slurs out his gratitude for every blessed touch, every gift Steve deems him worthy of. If Tony were in his right mind, he'd see the signs of where this is heading and act accordingly, but as it stands he trusts Steve to know the way for him. Just hold on and keep being good becomes Tony's whole reason to be. He can't fathom any future, distant or close. He exists in an eternal present, drool and tears dried on his face and his cock aching and his hole eager and clenching and Steve, Steve, Steve atop his thighs.
The worst part of all this is that Steve knows that you're supposed to prep beforehand - he just doesn't realize how vital it really is. He assumes that it's something that can be overcome if everything's slippery enough and the other person isn't as big as he is - and, to be honest, he's too damn impatient to stretch himself out. Rising up, he feels for Tony's cock, holds it steady as he blindly tries to fit it in the right place. It takes some confused squirming, but eventually, he gets everything lined up.
The first five seconds are pure bliss resounding through his body, a moment of ohgodyes before his muscles protest against the intrusion. "Fuck," Steve swears through clenched teeth, but because he's Steve Rogers, he tells himself that he can do this and -
"Fucking Christ!" What Steve refuses to accept are tears glint in the corners of his eyes, his body clenching tight around the head of Tony's cock. Even then, his own erection remains stubbornly hard, finding some kind of pleasure in all the pain. He sucks in deep breaths, trying to make himself relax. It'll be fine, everyone has a rough first time, this is probably normal.
The initial push inside doubles Tony into himself. He shouts and pants and pull the cuffs' chains taut and bends up his knees. Above the blindfold his brow grows deep, worried lines and his teeth chatter, brain confusing pain and pleasure. "Steve?" he calls again, shivery, with an ounce of fear wiggling its way in. Something is wrong, Steve's pained cursing hints at that, but Tony only feels it on some undefinable, subconscious level. He doesn't know what it is or how to act on it and it can easily fade back into the warm haze of subspace with a single reassurance. This is the deepest he's ever sunk. He's a piece of clay on Steve's pottery wheel, fully malleable, far past the point where he can be trusted with his own consent. He groans.
Steve forces a little more in, and now he's past the head. Gravity is at least nominally on his side here, and although it hurts like hell, he manages to slide the rest of the way down with only a whimper of pain escaping. "Oh god," he pants, wide-eyed, because although it hurts, there's something satisfying about being filled by Tony's cock, feeling him buried deep inside. It's still not a good idea, but it's that much closer to being bearable.
"Tony," he gasps. He's just going to stay still for a moment while his body adjusts. "It's okay, sweetheart, it's okay. I'm fine." At least, he's fine while he's not moving. As soon as he tries to lift up a little, his body protests again, and he bites his lower lip till he tastes blood. Relax, he tells himself, trying to will his muscles looser. He keeps moving, and it gets easier - or at least the balance of pain and pleasure shifts towards pleasure. It still hurts, but his cock is hard, and then suddenly he hits the prostate on one roll of his hips, and the curses that slip from his lips are entirely different.
The worry lines persist, but Tony lets his head fall to the pillow, his hair mussed and sticking up in the back. Tense and trembling all over, he stammers, "S-so--so tight, sir," because Steve's body grips his cock in a painful vice, but Tony has lost the ability to distinguish hurt from good, and after his denied orgasm, he's resting on a hairpin trigger. Already he's back at the precipice, balls raised and round and full. He begins chanting Steve's name over and over, reverential.
"Yeah, honey, yeah." Steve's voice is strained, but shit, it feels good, and he lets one hand fall to his cock. It seems to get harder every time Tony's dick hits his prostate, although it might just be in his imagination. "C'mon, wanna feel you come inside me, let go, it's all right. You did a good job." The words are slurred as he jerks himself off and fucks himself on Tony's cock, but still more or less understandable. Waves of pain wash over him, intermingling with the pleasure, but he couldn't stop if he wanted to.
Tony writhes in every part save for where Steve holds him down, his heels pushing into the bed and wearing a tear into the stockings. Each wild tug of his arms clinks the chains on the bedposts. Clamped onto his cock, the ring and Steve's body restrict easy relief. Steve's name on Tony's ruined lips dissolves into mindless sobs of "I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't!" and it builds and builds and builds till bursting, liable to explode, and finally -- whiteout. There's a scream, sounding distant, the voice destroyed. It might be Tony's. In that single instance, he doesn't know if anything belongs to him anymore.
The orgasm wrenches itself out of him, violently. It seems to last a millennium to his addled mind. He's whimpery and weak afterward. Spots of tears glimmer at the corners of the blindfold.
The way Tony moves underneath him makes the head of his cock drag over Steve's prostate again and again, and Steve strokes himself faster and harder, arousal spurring him on. Even after Tony comes, looking like a wet dream come to life, he stays hard inside Steve, thanks to the cockring, and Steve keeps moving desperately. He whimpers as his muscles tense - half from another spike of pain, half from anticipation - and forces his hips back down one last time. God, he can feel it as he clenches around Tony again and again, his cock spurting and jerking in his hand. The intensity of his orgasm makes him shoot ropes of come all the way up to Tony's chin, all over his bare chest.
Steve's dazed as he comes down from the high of his own orgasm, but as he moves to pull off of Tony, his muscles resist, and he has to bite his lower lip to keep from crying out in pain. Taking slow breaths, he relaxes, releasing him inch by inch. The cockring, thankfully, has an easy release; he doesn't have to roll it over the head of Tony's cock, just feel behind him until it snaps free.
He topples over on the bed with a grunt and inches his way up to Tony. As little as he feels like moving right now, he knows he needs to take care of him first. "Hey," he murmurs, brushing a kiss against his damp forehead. "That was great." With trembling hands, he frees one wrist, then the other, stretching to reach the restraints, then pulls the blindfold off. The plug's still in him, but Steve just needs a moment to cuddle and, you know, not move. He rests his chin on Tony's shoulder and closes his eyes.
All of the blindfold's edges are damp. When Steve removes it, a fresh tear rolls down Tony's temple. Tony blinks up at Steve through the wet lattice of his eyelashes and then closes his eyes again. His arms lie stretched out in the same spread-eagle position with the fingers sometimes twitching like they're still restrained (they are in a way, except this time it's all mental). Between Tony's legs the dildo has been sucked in more. His cock has completely softened.
He bumps his head lightly against Steve's, then lets it loll on the pillows like a drunkard. His eyes are glazed, dream-like, whenever he peeks them open. He is so very deeply under: he's in a half-conscious hypnotic state, breathing like someone fast asleep even as his eyes roam and he blinks in slow motion.
Steve brushes his lips against Tony's jawline, taking a moment to just bask in the afterglow. He tastes a bitter drop of semen on his skin and snorts, amused in a juvenile sort of way. "Guess I wasn't too far off when I said I was gonna come all over you." He's still breathless, and he doesn't expect Tony to respond, not with how far under he is. He's mostly talking to himself, which is probably kind of weird, so he shuts up and lets himself just enjoy this.
About ten minutes later, he stirs slowly and looks down at Tony - and his body. Specifically, his cock, which is dirty in an entirely different way than he'd expected. What the fuck? he thinks, because somehow Steve hadn't put two and two together and realized that the pain he felt was associated with blood. "Shit," he hisses under his breath. "Shit, shit, shit-" and then he rolls over, and there's another "shit". Not that he hasn't had his fair share of suppositories, which were unpleasant in their own way, but this is a new and not really exciting experience for him, right down to the sloshing in his ass. As much as he tries to tighten and hold it in, it doesn't really work as he hobbles to the bathroom, and there's a trail behind him. God, he hopes Tony has a good cleaning service.
He doesn't even look at the toilet afterwards, just flushes everything down, and he grabs some washcloths and towels, running a couple under the faucet. Moving is easier as he keeps going, or else he's just ignoring the pain (probably that one), and he staggers back to the bed to start cleaning Tony off, wiping him down gently with warm damp cloths.
When Steve returns, Tony has moved. He's twisted himself reaching in the direction of the ensuite bathroom like he tried to get up and follow Steve, his flower toward Steve's sun, but his motor functions quit halfway through. One of his hands dangles over the edge of the bed, fingers weakly curled. After being jostled, the dildo sticks awkwardly out from his body. Tony tracks Steve across the room from the moment he reenters; keeping Steve in his sight is the single most important task in the world. Tony might have crumbled if not for the faint sounds he caught through the open crack of the doorway.
Noticing the washcloths, he rolls onto his back to expose his sullied front. He knows the routine. Steve's come has dried into thick, sticky globs while the lube, mixed with the smears of blood, shines over Tony's crotch and backside. The dildo slips out more. His face contorts briefly, but his eyes remain, enthralled, on Steve's.
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When Steve pulls back and kisses him, Tony fidgets his hips and whimpers. The cockring has kept him hard, along with the past week of obedient self-deprivation, and the plug is still slotted maddeningly into his ass. "Is that not what we're already doing?" he rasps, voice wrecked, honestly confused. He consented earlier, at the start of this.
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(Frankly, he's a little surprised Tony isn't a lot deeper by now, and that makes him worry that he's doing something wrong. But he pushes the concern aside - Tony would have stopped him if he was doing anything he didn't like - and keeps going.)
Usually, he'd reward Tony by letting him come, but Steve needs to help him sink all the way down, to let go of all his fears and anxieties and guilt. He slides off the bed again and studies the dildos before settling on one that's long enough to hit Tony's prostate, but won't be nearly as thick as he wants right now, only a little thicker than the plug he already has in him. Sitting down again, he uncaps the lube and smears a generous glob of it over the dildo. "I'll take care of you, Tony," he promises sweetly as he eases the plug out.
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"Besides," he adds, and his tone is a little less sappy and a little more sassy, "nobody expects you to be easy, Tony. If you were, it wouldn't be as fun." And speaking of fun, Steve's about to troll him mercilessly.
Kissing Tony's forehead first, he moves back down between his thighs and starts to work the dildo in, adding more lube as he goes. "I thought that would keep you nice and open," he comments casually, like it isn't the first time in his entire life he's used an anal plug. "Guess I gotta keep stretching you out till you're ready to take me, hmm?"
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He tilts his head to try and catch a glimpse beneath the blindfold (he wants to see, wants to watch Steve), but it's fitted to the contours of his cheekbones and nose so not even light peeks through. He spreads his feet apart to leverage his hips higher. "Guess so. Gonna touch me this time?" he chastises airily.
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This is the first time he's used a dildo, too, and it feels like a strange disconnect, having something else between himself and Tony. He frowns slightly at the angle and grabs the second pillow from the head of the bed. "Lift your hips up," he tells Tony, and once he complies, slides the pillow underneath his ass. Now it's less awkward; the dildo doesn't have the same flexibility as flesh, doesn't conform the same way his cock or fingers would. He watches Tony as he works it in and out slowly, trying to figure out when he hits the prostate. (It's probably better Tony can't see his face screwed up in concentration as he changes the angle of the dildo slightly every time. He's too self-conscious about it.)
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Once a pillow props up his ass, he stretches out his legs to either side. "Please?" he tries like a test. Maybe if he's good, Steve will have mercy. Part of him, though, doesn't want Steve to. Part of him wants to be driven wild, flung out of his mind -- the dildo bumps against its target inside. Tony twitches in his lower body and sighs.
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He admits that not touching Tony the first time was a mistake that, in retrospect, was embarrassingly obvious. (Steve still feels the burn of shame for that one. Maybe Tony doesn't care about his inexperience, but part of Steve refuses to believe that.) This time, it's deliberate. His free hand roams everywhere but Tony's erection, tracing the lines of the garter, lingering maddeningly on his pelvis. All the while, he keeps fucking Tony with the toy, hitting his prostate with nearly every thrust.
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"Steve? Honey? You're not -- not forgetting me, right?" he gasps. He's teetering at the edge of a long drop, a welcoming abyss, entranced by the nothingness but afraid of the plunge. He's built so much of himself back up since they first started doing scenes, back when Tony threw himself into subspace for the sheer relief of it. He's reinforced all his walls. There's the crux of it, enough finally peeled away to reveal the truth: underneath the excuses of pride and strength and how submission isn't that, he's scared of being vulnerable again, of being hurt, because he's already made himself so raw for Steve, as raw as he made himself for Pepper, who in the end left him.
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Although it takes a moment to find a position that's comfortable, Steve finally lowers his head and brushes a kiss against the head of Tony's cock, dips his tongue into the slit and laps away the precome. "See? I got you, darling." Steve licks up and down his length like he's a piece of candy, tongue tracing the veins that stand out, even while he keeps working with the dildo. Eventually, he takes him into his mouth, sucking in earnest, waiting for those telltale signs that he's about to come.
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Licking his lips nervously, he reaches for the lube. First comes the toy he grabbed earlier - a plug just a little wider than the dildo, giving Tony more of what he wants, but still not enough. He eases it in slowly until the flared base presses close against Tony's ass.
Even now, he can admit that what comes next probably isn't the best idea he's had, but he wants to know what it feels like, and fucking himself with a toy while Tony watches just seems strange to him, like it skews the dynamics of their scene. Using Tony for his pleasure just makes sense.
"I'm gonna need you to keep holding on for me, okay?" Steve croons as he straddles Tony's thighs. "I know you can do it, darling." The lube is cold and makes a squelching noise as he smears it over Tony's cock, making sure there's plenty of it everywhere. "Just keep being good."
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The first five seconds are pure bliss resounding through his body, a moment of ohgodyes before his muscles protest against the intrusion. "Fuck," Steve swears through clenched teeth, but because he's Steve Rogers, he tells himself that he can do this and -
"Fucking Christ!" What Steve refuses to accept are tears glint in the corners of his eyes, his body clenching tight around the head of Tony's cock. Even then, his own erection remains stubbornly hard, finding some kind of pleasure in all the pain. He sucks in deep breaths, trying to make himself relax. It'll be fine, everyone has a rough first time, this is probably normal.
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"Tony," he gasps. He's just going to stay still for a moment while his body adjusts. "It's okay, sweetheart, it's okay. I'm fine." At least, he's fine while he's not moving. As soon as he tries to lift up a little, his body protests again, and he bites his lower lip till he tastes blood. Relax, he tells himself, trying to will his muscles looser. He keeps moving, and it gets easier - or at least the balance of pain and pleasure shifts towards pleasure. It still hurts, but his cock is hard, and then suddenly he hits the prostate on one roll of his hips, and the curses that slip from his lips are entirely different.
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The orgasm wrenches itself out of him, violently. It seems to last a millennium to his addled mind. He's whimpery and weak afterward. Spots of tears glimmer at the corners of the blindfold.
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Steve's dazed as he comes down from the high of his own orgasm, but as he moves to pull off of Tony, his muscles resist, and he has to bite his lower lip to keep from crying out in pain. Taking slow breaths, he relaxes, releasing him inch by inch. The cockring, thankfully, has an easy release; he doesn't have to roll it over the head of Tony's cock, just feel behind him until it snaps free.
He topples over on the bed with a grunt and inches his way up to Tony. As little as he feels like moving right now, he knows he needs to take care of him first. "Hey," he murmurs, brushing a kiss against his damp forehead. "That was great." With trembling hands, he frees one wrist, then the other, stretching to reach the restraints, then pulls the blindfold off. The plug's still in him, but Steve just needs a moment to cuddle and, you know, not move. He rests his chin on Tony's shoulder and closes his eyes.
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He bumps his head lightly against Steve's, then lets it loll on the pillows like a drunkard. His eyes are glazed, dream-like, whenever he peeks them open. He is so very deeply under: he's in a half-conscious hypnotic state, breathing like someone fast asleep even as his eyes roam and he blinks in slow motion.
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About ten minutes later, he stirs slowly and looks down at Tony - and his body. Specifically, his cock, which is dirty in an entirely different way than he'd expected. What the fuck? he thinks, because somehow Steve hadn't put two and two together and realized that the pain he felt was associated with blood. "Shit," he hisses under his breath. "Shit, shit, shit-" and then he rolls over, and there's another "shit". Not that he hasn't had his fair share of suppositories, which were unpleasant in their own way, but this is a new and not really exciting experience for him, right down to the sloshing in his ass. As much as he tries to tighten and hold it in, it doesn't really work as he hobbles to the bathroom, and there's a trail behind him. God, he hopes Tony has a good cleaning service.
He doesn't even look at the toilet afterwards, just flushes everything down, and he grabs some washcloths and towels, running a couple under the faucet. Moving is easier as he keeps going, or else he's just ignoring the pain (probably that one), and he staggers back to the bed to start cleaning Tony off, wiping him down gently with warm damp cloths.
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Noticing the washcloths, he rolls onto his back to expose his sullied front. He knows the routine. Steve's come has dried into thick, sticky globs while the lube, mixed with the smears of blood, shines over Tony's crotch and backside. The dildo slips out more. His face contorts briefly, but his eyes remain, enthralled, on Steve's.
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